Why?
I want to know the reasons for things, I want this world I happen to exist in to be explained to me. Why do people suffer? That's a major Why? question I want answers. Why do suffering, despair, sorrow, and any negative experiences exist in life?
I suppose that is a major reason for my spiritual decisions and my desire to help others.

Mt. Kailash, in Tibet, is considered a holy site to four different religions: Hinduism, Buddhism, Sikhism, and Bon.
It is forbidden to set foot on the mountain itself.
In Hinduism the mountain is considered the spiritual center of the world.
It is believed that a pilgrim to circumnavigate the mountain 108 times is assured enlightenment.
I want to journey on the path around this mountain.

For a long time I felt extremely uncomfortable with touch. I hated to touch or be touched. I had horrible experiences with physical contact and wanted to do away with it altogether. (Along with any type of relationships- friends, etc.)
I've grown a lot since then but still have trouble with touch. I've only recently begun to embrace my friends, even the ones I've known for years. And now I'm comfortable with touch, and want hugs and cuddles, but because for so long I despised even the gesture of touch, my friends are continuing to try to avoid touching me.
I just wish I'd realized sooner how amazing a simple hug can be; how supportive in times of trouble, how unifying and jubilant in times of joy or celebration...
But I've had to change my entire way of thinking and learn to recognize that touch can be a very positive thing. It can be difficult to break out of a negatie cycle of thinking, and scary, but it's definitely worth it.

The sayings of the Buddha. I have always been captivated by Eastern philosophies. Some of the things in this book made me really reflect and think.

I enjoy being alone. There was a time in my life when I actually craved solitude and rejected any attempt at others of trying to penetrate my walls of isolation.
I realize now that solitude is a wonderful experience for a temporary session; but there is so much that is worth experiencing with others, and so much to give and to be gained in a relationship; and so much to learn.

I love the summer. I miss it already. Midsummer is a wonderful, fun, beautiful day, and was this year for me at least, but it always makes me a bit sad.
I love the pretty autumn leaves, but I've never enjoyed the ice of winter. One more summer vanishing away, one more winter upon us.
I am trying to incorporate new philosophy into my life; to let it be, to let go and embrace every moment without concern over what is to come or what has passed.

Ambivalent. Afraid. Accepting.